I can’t stop looking online….not in person…

Since Gerry finally got relief from cancer, six months ago, and I firmly believe that he is looking down at me.  I apologize Boy, for not being able to watch people walk their dogs, and it hurts when I hear dog’ tags jingle jangle.  YOU did nothing wrong.  You have not made me dislike other dogs..never ever think that.

I sleep with your blanket curled up between my belly and legs…a temporary replacement of your hips and behind, that I loved to curl into, on YOUR bed.  It is still not a “guest bedroom”..it’s our room.  It’s where I found you at 4:45 am each work day and snugged with you for 15 minutes before we went outside.  This winter was HARSH, and I’m grateful you and I didn’t have to bear it together.  This doesn’t mean I’m unable to do it again…I just needed a rest….and emotional rest after we said goodbye.  I’m still resting, but I wanted to say today, I love you boy, and you made me fall in love with Labs. None of  your blankets smell like you anymore.  Time moves on…

About danielle

I am a rescue mom and school teacher. Gerry came to me from Texas, after he "failed" as a hunting dog. He had NOT had an easy life. I was three years divorced, and we saved each other. Last week I learned he has osteosarcoma. Our world feels upside down...while everyone else is right side up.
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