…for this photo/print. I found it on Pinterest and immediately connected to it once I read it. I began being more mindful and grateful once Gerry came into my life. I never needed anyone to remind me to love my dog. Truly.
When he leaves me…I don’t know who I’ll even want to consider as replaces him or his unique love. I’m sorry, but it’s honest and it’s true. My boy is my only child, and we have lived… and loved alone for 3 years by ourselves initially. This is not to say I didn’t love others, and my human love, David did move in with us for the past 4 years, but Gerry is the most unique character in my entire life.
I have lost friends to cancer, an accidental murder,the reaction to losing the someone with cancer, not to mention a grandfather and uncle who committed suicide, and another who hid himself in his apartment and let himself die all on his own from neglect.
A dog seemed the natural relief.
Then, cancer.
It’s enough already…truly. I am not in love with the idea of “this world” or “reality” anymore.
I bet Gerry’s happy he “failed” as a hunting dog. He had succeeded in adding to your life. He will not desert you.
Hugs to you and Gerry,
Kerren and Tripawd Kitty Mona
Such a lovely sentiment.
Yes, I agree witnt Kerren, whatever all the hardships were that vrought him to you, he is thrilled he ended up with who he was born to be with all along!! 🙂
You’ve certainly had a rough go of it with some of the experiences you have had to deal with. And yes, Gerry has helped you through some of the very dark times in your life. But Gerry saw all your inner strength and courage within you that helped you to move forward. Gerry has been by your side all these years, and continues to be by your side, to remind you of how powerful and unstoppable you’ve become 🙂 Is that v4oy an amazing teacher or what? 🙂 🙂
Okay….you forvot something…and you know what it is!! Yep! GERRY PICTURES….OR SELFIES OF YOU AND GERRY!!!! BTW….that black a d white ohoto zwhike back of you two was stunning!
Love and hugs!
Sally and Alumni Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie too!
No dog can ever “replace” Gerry or all his “uniqueness”. Nope, Gerry’s relationship with you is one of a kind and can never be duplicated! HOWEVER, it can always be added to in many other forms of “uniqueness” from a special dog who GERRY picks out for you when GERRY DECIDES to do so! Wait! There’s more!!! Gerry may even decide to bring a dog into HIS life (thus YOUR life) waaaay bedore he even thinks about heading to the Bridge!! Waaaay before!!! 🙂 Yeah, that Gerry loves you sooooo much he’s going to make sure you will ALWAYS be loved!!! 🙂
“It’s enough already…truly. I am not in love with the idea of “this world” or “reality” anymore.”
This is exactly how I felt/feel after my Venus was diagnosed with osteo and passed away over a year later. She was my whole world and I wish I could tell you it gets easier, but over 6 months later, and things are still not looking good.
I want to say something more positive but I’m not in that place right now – but Sally (as usual) has provided some wonderful thoughts and although I felt the same way as you (I wasn’t interested in loving any other dog but Venus), there are so many poor furbabies out there that need a good home, and helping one or more of them is a great way to honor Venus’s memory.
But that’s something for you to think about much later – for now, cherish every moment (I know I don’t need to remind you of that). Tell Gerry as often as possible how special he is – he’ll understand of course – so that when the time comes, there’ll be no regrets.
In any case, it’ll only be a temporary goodbye. The connection between us and our furbabies is too strong to be severed by mere Death. Whether it’s at Rainbow Bridge or some other “sky home,” you two WILL be reunited.
In the meantime, though, I hope you & Gerry (and David 🙂 ) create some more wonderful memories together. Thinking of you xox
Danielle, you’ve been through a lot of grief, more than most, and I am really sorry, I know how much your heart is hurting. I wish I knew why the Universe does things like this to us. I don’t. But when I think of all the grief you experienced and then how Gerry came into your life, I can only wonder if he found you in order to re-introduce you to love, life and happiness. It’s got to be why he came into your life. And when the day comes that he transitions away from an earthly being into an eternal soul, those lessons he taught you will never fade, nor will his love. I have no doubt you will eventually find a way to honor his life by continuing on in the love and light that he wanted for you.
For now, remember, he is still with you and a part of this beautiful world. Cancer is hard, and it sucks, but you still have your boy and there will be plenty of time for tears later on, some day, hopefully far away.
Please know if you want to talk, our Tripawds Helpline is here for you OK? 877-TRIPAWD.
Thank you for your kind words, all of you. Yesterday wasn’t a great day, but the sun came up as always today. So again, thank you.
Danielle,
A wise woman (Sally) once told me something that helped me through the dark days after my Buddy was diagnosed with OSA. LIVE IN THE MOMENT. BE MORE DOG. Gerry is still here. Don’t start grieving for him yet. Savor every moment. Spoil that dog. Have no regrets. Gerry just lives in the moment. You must meet him there. One more thing that Sally told me was that the pain is unbearable at times BUT would you trade that pain if it meant you never got to have Gerry in your life? I bet you wouldn’t. Please know that we have all been where you are and we are here for you if you need us. you aren’t along. You still have Gerry and you have us.
Sending warm/healing thoughts and many prayers
Julie and Spirit Buddy
Life is the hardest teacher, first it gives us the experience, then it teaches us the lesson. You ARE right. Gerry is going to get to enjoy the hell out of this weekend. Believe me, I have been mindful of how present Gerry is in my life, and I know that when he isn’t here I’ll think of 100 more small moments I never noticed, but for now, I’m trying to let him be, take him for walks and rides which he still seems to enjoy, and this weekend we’ll go to great farmer’s market and get some fresh eggs and veggies for him. Eating is becoming less interesting to him, which is one of the most painful of signs. This was a dog, after I rescued that I had to put a smaller, upside down bowl inside his dinner bowl so he wouldn’t be able to eat as quickly and learn there was no competition. Dinner was all his. I’ll have to ask my new third graders if they can help me become more DOG LIKE. What would I care about?
I had to get Buddy rotisserie chicken!! Yes, learn from your kiddos and Gerry. You got this and you have us!
And yes, Life is the hardest teacher!