What makes us suffer…

Which is why I wonder why God gave me a head and heart that don’t understand this reality, yet also made me a dog lover at the same time.  It feels like a cruel joke lately.

I dipped my toes into the pool of finding a new rescue.  Chardonnay at midnight will do that I suppose. I went so far as to inquire about an elderly Lab mix, who stayed by her owners side until he passed away.  I woke up in the morning, full of mixed emotions.  The house is not ready.  I don’t know if I’m really ready, although I WANT to be …we have two out of state vacations planned for the summer, and suddenly it didn’t feel like the right move at all.  Thankfully petfinder.org sent me a direct link to be in touch with the shelter before they contacted me.  I explained as well as I could, my dilemma.  As it turns out, Beau (her name) had a brother too, and there was no way I would have been ready for two new babies or would ever separate them.  They are in a foster home, not a shelter, out in Tennessee.  I’m, supposing they were going to drive him east, to a sister foster home in Connecticut, because that was where petfinders had her linked.  I told the woman I would like to make a donation at the least, and she was above and beyond grateful.  Sigh.  My soul was able to relax a little.

Lesson learned…and knowledge gained.  There are Always going to be dogs who need a loving home, and when I’ve built it back up again, I will gladly let another in.

About danielle

I am a rescue mom and school teacher. Gerry came to me from Texas, after he "failed" as a hunting dog. He had NOT had an easy life. I was three years divorced, and we saved each other. Last week I learned he has osteosarcoma. Our world feels upside down...while everyone else is right side up.
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4 Responses to What makes us suffer…

  1. benny55 says:

    Just caught up on some of the posts on one of my favorite dogs!

    Interesting jow things unfolded with the dog that you almost had! Charlie and the Universe know you are open for sure now.

    Btw, love the verse. I have a couple of little books by Hanh too. Not exactly a surprise, eh?

  2. jerry says:

    Beautiful verse! Thank you for sharing.

    I love that you at least explored the idea of bringing another fur kid into your life, and found that you weren’t quite ready. That’s good! You are making the best decisions for you and your situation right now, and when the time is right you will know it.

    And we will be here when it happens!

    • danielle says:

      Thank you for reassuring me. It was a terrible weekend of too much thinking. For know I’m going to spruce /summer-up gerry’s place in our yard.

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